Sunday, January 17, 2010

Running on Empty

It's really starting to settle in that I'll be leaving Korea in a less than a week. Jesse is having a hard time dealing with it, which makes it hard for me to show my excitement. I really AM excited though, but I feel like by getting excited, I'm somehow showing him that I want to get away from him. He's worried that our families or friends are going to think the reason I'm coming home for some time with Cori is because we're having problems. I don't personally think anyone will think that, but really you never know, I guess. Luckily, he will be home just three weeks after we arrive. He will then stay for about two weeks, and then fly back alone. Unfortunately, he'll then have five whole weeks without us, and I just feel terrible about that. The only reason I'm not flying home until mid-April is because he was supposed to take leave from early-mid April and we were going to fly home together. Then, he changed his leave dates around, but we'd already booked my return flight. I feel really bad about that, but I don't think I could change my dates around without lots of fees.

I've had next to no motivation lately. I haven't been motivated to make big dinners, or even clean. I have no problem doing everything to take care of Cori including diaper changes, feedings, baths, whatever. I just feel like ever since Cori was born, all of my motivation for those house wifely duties has gone out the window. I'm hoping that once I go back to America and re-energize, those motivations will come back to Korea with me.

I really don't have much else to say tonight. I've been sleepy lately, and not feeling the best. I hope it passes soon.

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